Thursday, November 24, 2016

Thank God For Answered Prayers

Sometimes I wonder why I do half of things I seemingly randomly commit to. You'd be such a good teacher. I think so too, I'll get my degree in teaching. You should start a blog. I love writing, what a good idea! You love New York. Why don't you just move there? I know, I think I'll try.

The latest has been about a makeup company. It offers such flexibility, decent money, and it's right in line with your mission of confidence in women and children... Why don't you sell Mary Kay? I dunno, let's give it a whirl.

So here I sit on Thanksgiving Day. A preschool teacher, colorguard coach, and blogger, sorting through box after box of new makeup inventory. It is flexible. It does make decent money. And I do get to remind women each day how beautiful they are. It's everything I ever wanted it to be, but like everything else, it has its ups and downs. And last night, I was stressing about Black Friday. Or Pink Friday, as Mary Kay likes to call it.

I'm a teacher! And an amateur writer. And a performer and a full time college girl. Not a salesgirl. So how was I supposed to host a Black Friday sale? And why on earth would I spend my first week of the semester off nurturing a new business? Well, even I wasn't really sure. I just felt like I should.

"Another question..." I texted my MK mentor (I always seem to have an over-abundance of questions), "I don't have very many customers because I'm new and have only booked one party so far! How can I rock this Black Friday thing??"

The answer? "Start a Facebook group of absolutely everyone you think might be interested in buying."

I must've added every female on the list. You just never know who's looking for what, you know?

It wasn't 20 minutes later before a girl I hadn't seen in nine years sent me a message. "Hi, someone added me to this group and I just don't know much about it. I know it's about makeup so I'm definitely interested if someone could explain it to me?"

I gave her my usual monologue about Mary Kay products and the company itself, half expecting her to buy and half expecting her to remove herself from the group completely. Then came her response: Congrats on all your success! I want to be a consultant. I'm a single mom who just lost my relationship and job and I am looking for a job. I think this sounds perfect. I'm a great sales person and I need any extra way to make some money. Do I just text the number you gave me? 

I was floored. The question had always been why is an early childhood educator out selling makeup? My answer was always I dunno, I felt like I should. Now, it was Because someone needed me to. 

This Thanksgiving, I am thankful for God's plan. It is so much better than ours! I was once told at a consultant meeting:

If your dreams don't scare you, they don't scare your enemy. 

I have yet to hear anything quite so true. If you have a dream today, make sure you take the time to notice it. If you feel called, or compelled, or even the slightest feeling that something might be important...even if you don't know why or how it could be's important that you do it. I thought the Mary Kay opportunity might help me aid some big transitions coming up in my life, but it was actually to help someone else aid the big transitions in her life. I am so thankful God was able to reach her through me. It was an honor to be used, just as he used my Mary Kay mentor to reach out to me. They always said it was about more than makeup, and I prayed it would be true.

Thank God for answered prayers.

Wednesday, November 9, 2016

History Has Its Eyes On You

This is not a political post. I don't write political posts. I write vulnerable posts, and this will be no different. Will you know who I voted for by the end of this article? No, I will not tell you. Will you be able to figure it out? Probably; if you're a regular reader with a firm grip on the things I believe. Will I delete your comments if you disagree with me? No. But will I debate with you about it? No. I will stand for what is important to me, but I will not fight with others because they disagree. I am putting a few thoughts out there because I am not a coward, but I will not flounder back and forth with you because I am not tacky. There has been one thought my blog had ridden on since the beginning: If you do not like what I have to say, you do not have to read it. If we do not agree now, we probably never will. That's okay. I will love you anyway. I will support you anyway. All I am asking is the same in return. 

November 7, 2016     11:30 pm
Tomorrow is the day we all never actually thought would happen. For over a year now, we have watched this election unfold. Even though I support one candidate more than the other, I could not fully support either one. I knew I would have to vote for someone I thought would make a bad President for the sole reason that I thought the other candidate would make an even worse President. And yet, I think I was waiting for some miraculous intervention that would take care of this mess for us. But here we are. We were not lucky enough for a miraculous intervention. Polls open in a few hours. May the odds be ever in our favor. 

November 8, 2016     7:20 am
People are flocking to the polls. I don't have practicum teaching today because my school is a poll site. I considered going in anyway to get a few hours and do some lesson planning, but I don't want anywhere near that madness. I can't even think about the future of the nation and the future of my students at the same time. Too much anxiety ensues when you put those precious futures together. 

November 8, 2016     5:30 pm
I just got back from class and the drama has already started. I'm signing off facebook until next week. I think it's interesting how so many friends preached the importance of remaining classy and loving through this madness. Those same friends are now carrying out heated debates through facebook comments and spewing hatred toward their loved ones who think differently. Everyone has always had a different opinion on everything. I often wonder why people think a presidential election with such drastic opinions and childish candidates will unite the nation. How can people not see that this is actually dividing us even more? 

November 8, 2016     7:20 pm
Thank goodness it is my friend and roommate's birthday. I get to go have some steak and good company amid the madness. I'm turning off the TV to indulge myself in some Texas Roadhouse rolls. I'm sure the election will still be on TV when I arrive back home. 

November 8, 2016     10:30 pm
Her birthday was filled with some good ol' country line dancing, good food, and good friends who couldn't shut up about the election, and I am not innocent of it myself. It's an addicting conversation. It was on almost every TV in the restaurant. No one was talking about their life. Everyone was talking about who they voted for and why and what their exit plan was to leave the country when their candidate didn't win. I wanted to participate in the conversation because I wanted to have a good time. But I knew the second I opened my mouth with my own opinion, I would be stuck yelling with those who agreed and debating with those who did not. I just took a deep breath and ate my bread. 

November 8, 2016     11:22 pm
My roommates and I are gathered on the couch. We are trying to find the good and the bad, but somehow we keep coming back to a whole lot of bad. We are fortunate enough to not be scared like so many of our other friends, but we are just human enough to be disappointed. Not necessarily in the candidate who is taking the lead, but in this entire election itself. The sentence most used in our apartment tonight: "This is just not how this election was supposed to go." 

November 9, 2016     12:30 am
My roommates are asleep so I am alone watching now. I need to go to bed. I can't believe I'm sitting here as if this is going to get any better. 

November 9, 2016     3:46 am
I woke up for medicine and water because my throat hurts. I am tempted to check in on the results. I turn my phone off instead. 

November 9, 2016     6:30 am
I logged onto facebook. That was a mistake. I'm going back to sleep. 

November 9, 2016     1:33 pm
Have any of you seen Hamilton: The Musical? There's a lyric regarding the election of 1800 that I can't shake from my head. Jefferson or Burr; we know it's lose/lose... Jefferson or Burr; but if you had to choose...

That's where we are. A lose/lose election, and yet, we're forced to choose. 

Am I happy with the way this turned out? Not really. Would I have been happy if the other candidate won? Not really. I haven't been on my personal facebook page at all since this morning, and won't (at least until the end of the week). I was na├»ve to think that this would all die down after the election. We aren't going to stop thrusting opinions on others and we aren't going to stop spewing hatred simply because one has been elected. Oh no, this will carry on for the next four years. Lucky us, huh? 

However, the goal of my blog was to remain a positive environment. So here are two of my favorite quotes from both of our candidates. 

Without passion you don't have energy, and without energy you have nothing. Nothing in this world has been accomplished without passion.
     -Donald Trump

To all the little girls watching... Never doubt that you are valuable and powerful, and deserving of every chance and opportunity in the world. 
     -Hillary Clinton

I have said before that there is one thing I will never share about myself: the person I voted for in a presidential election. Why? Because I believe in fighting for the stances and issues and beliefs I find most important. I believe in standing for what is right. I will tell you what I think about every topic on the political agenda. From there, you could probably guess which candidate will be filled in on my ballot if it is that important to you, but I will never specifically say their name. Why? Because if you disagree with me, you will try to change my mind (even though I am just as stubborn, if not more stubborn, than you are). And if you agree with me, you will act as though you've found your soul mate; the one kindred spirit on this earth that you can share everything with. 

I don't believe in taking sides. I believe in love. I believe in kindness, and positivity, and hope. 

So here's what we're gonna do. The results are in. Congratulations America, it's a boy. There is nothing we can do to change it if we wanted a girl, and no reason to flaunt it if we've prayed years for a boy. Some of us are happy, some of us a terrified, and some of us just want to forget the whole thing ever happened. Let's go back to the primaries. No, let's go back before that. Let's just start over, okay? 

We can't do that. So we're going to wake up each morning, make our coffee strong, and love like we've never loved before. The world is going to need a light, and it's going to have to come from us. 

Joy can be found in the darkest of times, if only we remember to turn on the light. 

This little light of mine? I'm gonna let it shine. I'm gonna take this light around the world and I'm gonna let it shine. I won't let anyone blow it out; I'm gonna let it shine. Every day, every night; I'm gonna let it shine. 

The future of this country (and this world), is not solely dependent on who we elect as President. Is our leadership important? Of course. But it depends on us, too. So keep on pressing on, my confident, beautiful love warriors. The world will need us now more than ever.